This is totally from my experience and I'm in no way trying to offend anyone, but AA/NA scares me. My experience there was basically with a bunch of Bible-thumping rednecks. "Jesus will cure you." Moot point as I don't believe in God or Jesus or any of that. And I've heard many times that God doesn't have to be your HP but try telling that to a room full of people who have already told you you're going to hell. I thought I could be accepted among addicts and instead I felt like an outcast. Well, except for the guy that hit on me. That was just uncomfortable.
I realize this is a 12-step forum but I thought maybe some friends and family would be able to give me some perspectives, which is why I posted here. And that's happened and I appreciate it. Sorry if I picked the wrong place.