You and I have almost the same story except my husband and mother knew. I loved my tabs and then it went to perks. Then I went to detox and here I am almost five months clean. It's hard but you can do it. I have a little boy and one on the way now. Life is much better without the drugs but of course no fairytale. I think you should atleast tell your husband you think you are addicted to the pills. They are highly addictive and he just might understand, you are going to need people around you when you try this out.