Welcome to SR!
I also agree with the above. I know, with depression (I'm on an anti-d) that if I'm not feeling very positive about myself, possible future employers can sense it, no matter how good a front I think I'm putting up.
It's hard to deal with the consequences of our using - for me it was family/career/financial/legal. I lost a good career and have been waiting tables for 4-1/2 years, but have had to quit that job and am looking for something else, and it's hard - I'm way older than you, but that means more experience and it's still hard.
The thing is, I keep trying, and am back in school for a field that is similar to what I was doing, and will continue to grow throughout the years. I also put my recovery first - without that, I have nothing, and I'm tired of starting over.
Glad you're here!!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy