Hi Apple6
Welcome to SR
I frequently drink myself into oblivion and then all sorts of terrible things happen (which is an understatement), and then come the horrible feelings and unmet obligations. I then feel that I want to quit drinking and then a little time passes and I'm back at it. It's a cycle that's been going on for many years; I want to stop it.
I know that cycle every well - I lived it for the best part of 20 years.
You'll find a lot of support here
I drank enough so that SR was enough for me. It's helped me to (I hope) permanently break the cycle....but others here need face to face support too...
I hope, if you think you need it down the track, you'll reconsider looking into meetings or something...our addiction will feed on anything, but especially our pride...don't let being recognised stop you if you need the help
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