I am so out of control. I have been drinking about 2 to three boxes a wine a week for almost 6 years. I met my hubby and moved out of state for employment. Left my kids (they were older), left family and friends. Between both of us, we have lost around 5 jobs. Hubby just lost another job last July. I feel so isolated and sad. Hubby won't speak to me because I had an alcoholic rage last Tuesday. I screamed, yelled and put him down. I keep crying and have been very sick for almost 6 months, broken blood vessel in my lung, high blood pressure, asthma attacks and several hospitalizations. I am at the end of my rope. Drinking kills the pain and gives me something to do at night besides watching t.v. or watching my husband be depressed because he is trying to start a business but hardly any luck. We can't move back to our home state because of being stuck in our home, (we declared bankruptcy last year) and you need good credit to even rent a home now. Help.......I am tired of crying all of the time.
