Originally Posted by
DRI 
For me, I just decided to quit one day, and I didn't look back.
The quitting isn't necessarily the hard part. It's the staying quit. It's moments like these. I needed to apply something bigger to my problem or I found that the train kept bringing me back to the station where I started, making several stops that looked like where you're at now.
Originally Posted by
Nyte Byrd As they say, 'the same man will drink again.'
Indeed.
There's a bit of a chicken/egg thing going on when you mention your thoughts of drinking alongside your time spent here and reading more about it. For me, quitting was (in the past) like burying a drum of toxic waste. It didn't matter how deep I put it -- eventually what I was trying to get rid of made it's way back into my environment. My thoughts. Little ideas.
In regards to AA, I would suggest getting the experience first hand.