IPROMISE

I want to thank everyone for their advice. This is so hard and I never envisioned myself at this place in my life. I love him so much, and in my first paragraph I was angry when I said I was glad I didn't marry him. I want to marry him big time, but not like this - I want him to be sober so badly. It really breaks my heart at times. I promised myself that I would not be that person that tolerates this ever. My grandmother did. She was married a second time to someone who was a raging alcoholic. She was so co dependent on that person...it was really sad. I think that I need to look in the mirror really hard to decide if that is the person that I want to be.

I will tell you that the Funeral really had me thinking. The mother of the son in law who passed away has been sober for over 13? years. She's coping. She's strong and she is my best friend and I respect her for staying sober every day. I just wish my gentleman could do the same.....