Welcome to the family IPROMISE!
You will find lots of support and information for yourself here. Glad you found us!
One of the first things I learned about alcoholism is the 3 C's:
I didn't cause it
I can't control it
I won't cure it
I tried begging, pleading, bargaining, and just going crazy. I was the one with the problem, really! I kept accepting unacceptable behavior. When I finally began to accept the 3 C's, I was able to give the other adult in my relationship control of their own life. I had my own life to live.
I'm sorry you had a funeral to attend today. And now you are anticipating a drunk.
Can you go to another room? Seperate yourself from his behavior, mentally and physically. I would go to the back of the house and use the computer and spend time here at SR reading. I recommend the permanent (sticky) posts at the top of this page! Wow, lots of wisdom there!
Keep coming back, we're here to support you!