Taz, Only meant closing the door as in I am not going to continue that behavior. I do regret my choices in the past but through this site I am learning to grow from it.
Sarah, I have read many of your posts and can COMPLETELY relate. I am officially on day 4, quit on Sunday. Saturday was my last binger and last time to drink. Sunday I just decided it wasn't worth it. I am not going to have any problems getting through the week or each day or heck even through the weekend. What is going to be hard is social functions. I have talked with my co worker that has 24 yrs of soberity and has been in AA the whole time. I told her that I have decided for now it's best for me to decline invites that I know will have drinking. The environment and people make it too tempting. Maybe someday it will get easier.