Hi Ski,
I've read that you need to hit a bottom before you'll be ready to quit.
Absolutely not. Besides, maybe this is your bottom. A bottom isn't always recognizable at first. Many don't realize that were at bottom until they've had some sober time under their belt to see clearly.
I had anxiety too. In my case and with some others it subsided after a while, mine was strictly brought on by the alcohol. Not saying your is, it's just maybe a possibility.
Your post wasn't rambling at all. :-) Check out all your options and get on your way!!
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