And Anna you put it sooooo well, that giving it up is a loss. It's almost like losing a friend in some sense. Even though I didn't drink everyday....it does feel like that because I used it as my friend at parties. I think for awhile I am just going to have to steer clear of events that involve drinking. Which sadly means probably missing out on a good friends birthday party....cuz it's going to be at a bar. I have also read on here how people are jealous of others cuz they seem to have control of it and really we know they may not....some might, I don't want to judge. But I know most of my friends do not have it under control. I was right there with them saying "I don't drink everday...so therefore I don't have a problem...I go to work everday, my job isn't affected by it....etc..." but yet I am seeing more and more lately that there is more to everyone's story...