Learn- Thank you for your post. YOu make some great points.
I will say, I DO take responsiblility for myself. I take responisiblity for everything I put into the relationship that was my choice. I take responsibility for CHOOSING to move and pursue the relationship, I have no problem with that.
I'm sorry to disagree with you but I am ruled by my emotions. I always have been. I am VERY reactive.
I have started to take the necessary steps to heal myself, and protect myself. I have been in counseling going on 6 months now. It has been extremely helpful. HE is NOT my ONLY source of pain in my life. I am dealing with it.
I don't blame anyone for things that are in my control. Yes, my life is in my control. I have been alone and independent my ENTIRE life....I have never had anyone to lean on, blame, or turn to except for myself. Not even parents who have been there for me.
Yes, you are right...I wish I had NEVER read the email.