PS Also, just as an aside I have never had the "If only this then that" work as a tool to quit drinking, nor have I ever seen it work for anyone else.
Ever.
I don't like to pronounce anyone's recovery plan as a success or failure but I can emphatically say I have never seen this work for anyone.
ex: if this set of circumstances comes together I will quit drinking" just doesn't work in my experience, hope is not a plan
I have seen thousands of people including myself give it the old college try though so certainly won't deny you your opportunity to try it.
keep us posted.