Howdy blugrl,
If you are interested in quitting for good and all, it helps to start with the truth. If you are still using, you are not in the ups and downs of recovery. You are not in recovery at all. You are still actively using, with all of the delusional thinking that goes with it.
If you'd like to start in recovery, look around this forum for people that have been successful with it, and do what they do. I think you will find it extremely rare where someone says they recovered as the result of meeting the right person.