I'm a mom of two little girls and I also got addicted to pain pills. It is no joke, huh?
What helped me was reading this board, starting to post and kind of training my brain to think about a different way to live. You will find posts about people living happy, healthy lives without drugs. It's like a view to the other side that we so need to see when we are struggling.
Please please stay here and read. Just that you wrote about your problem is a HUGE step and one you should be proud of.