Pitaro,
Would you please read the above posts about three times, three different times. In your head come up with any objections to what these people are seeing. Then conduct a conversation: with yourself, your best friend, with us. It sounds kinda crazy.
Bucyn you are nailing this completely. Jen, I join you in laughter. (when i was in that situation, i finally said "ya know, maybe i'm frigid, maybe i'm a closet lesbian and i don't know it yet, i just know this is the way it is". it seemed easier and kinder to lie out that one, and we finally had a truce)
Pitaro, please do not read judgement here, or that we just don't understand. We understand because we have walked in similar shoes. Hope to hear from you soon