Originally Posted by
swampy 
I had a sponsor and was working the steps.
If I could just get the drive to not drink back.
Swampy,
So, I compare these two statements and I see a disconnect. If you think that you possess enough 'drive' or willpower to not drink, then you have missed Step 1.
Don't worry. It happens all the time, for various reasons. The experience you are having right now of wanting not to drink, but being unable to stop, is really what Step 1 is about. Powerlessness.
You, just like me, lack the power to not drink. Lack of power is our dillemma. The book (see pg 45) is all about getting that power.
So, if your sponsor is not taking you through that book to learn the specific and precise directions for getting that power, he is doing you a dis-service.
I had to find someone who could me in that book what actions I could take to have that power in my life. Those are the Steps.
What was your sponsor having you do? What Step were you on?