I deeply resent having not been born royalty.
I mean,
I also know exactly what you mean
by feeling like you're the
only one having to
be the grown up.
*hugs for that *
The thing *I* try to do
when I start getting bogged down
by that feeling ...
... Is I try
to remember that
if I am being affected
that deeply by something
someone else is doing
I might be standing still
in my own life.
You said that :
I am frustrated because I occassionally get my hopes up that he will "wake up" from this strange and mean haze he is in, and then I could actually think about a future
what came to me when I read that was
it was very similar to reading
an alcoholic say something about
going through the steps
so they could control their drinking.
It's the disease sneaking it's voice back in,
is what I'm trying to say.
Because if you're not going to get struck by a meteorite
in the next ten minutes...
you ARE going to have A future.
It's just ...
going to be a DIFFERENT future
than we'd mapped out.
Am I making sense?