Dear HW
So glad you found us. Your post made me sad for you. You are not hopeless. You are not alone . You broke the silence . You are starting to focus on YOU . He is a manipulating abusive alcoholic and only he can change it. You are going to move forward and start making choices that will benefit you. It may feel uncomfortable at first , but you will learn to love yourself. And you deserve all the love you can give yourself.
Dont go down the tubes for and with a partner who does not respect you (or himself!) Find ways to be good to yourself - it will help him in the long run as he needs boundaries to recover. I only said the last sentence ,because I was so addicted to my STBXAH that that was what motivated me at the beginning of my recovery.
You do deserve a way out of this mess! You are not alone.
