Steven, Good for you being sober for 17 hours!
I can relate to your fear of the dr. I have actually had two full-blown panic attacks when I was at a drs appointment.
It helped me to believe that no dr has the power to tell me if I'm going to live or die. I use the dr as a tool to help me maintain my health, but I had to take back some of the power I had given over to doctors. Ultimately, the Universe has a plan for me, and for you.