Stella you're one smart cookie. I would tell you those things wouldn't I?
This morning was tough. I feel like a failure and am trying to stay positive. I have SAD and its' been especially brutal lately, just like it is every January through June. It's dark out I mean DARK and I have a sinus infection, like I do every winter. This is why old folks leave the midwest and go south. I"m smoldering in anger, resentment that I still live here. I hate it here, so much.
so I'm impatient and depressed. I actually texted my sister to find out what the drugs she takes are. She says if she doesnt' take them, she feels like killing everyone.
I am so torn. It's way easier and more convienient to take a pill than go to yoga three times a week (which heals everything) yet I know too much about the side effects and withdrawl to do it. I can tell I'm spiraling down. I so don't want it to effect my kids.
Anyway, my son told me this morning why he likes it at his Dads more. It's cleaner, more fun and he has a fireplace.
He's just a kid, yes, but I need to get these boxes out of here.