Thanks Carol. My name was inspired by a book I read a long time back when I was still drinking and trying to convince myself that being alone was the only way to go.
I read some posts in the f&f section and felt like a fraud. An addict trying to understand how to deal with an addict? It makes me laugh at myself. I feel like I'm in some type of surreal dream. Like my family/friends locked me in a fun house so I could understand everything I did to them or something. It's just so far beyond my capacity of understanding at this point. Thank you though . . . You just saying you left your lover to guard your sobriety was a push in the right direction? I just don't know. The guilt is overwhelming me. Trying to stay connected to my higher power but it's been a crap shoot lately.