I did the same thing, hon.
That 'alienation' stuff works on them too.
My ex wo9uld leave my son standing by the window on a friday night
and not show up the whole weekend....
I'll NEVER forget him waiting there with his little packed suitcase...
then even after that hurt...
he'd tell me he preferred his dad.
We have to allow for the simple fact
that children don't have the life experience necessary
to make those kind of decisions.
They just want the parent to want them.
That's all.