It was over eight years ago, now,
but still there's a 'charge' seeing him on my incoming mail.
But I can come here - and here you are.
And I know I'll be okay.
I *have* got a new life now
and it *is* going better.
well -
I was making money hand over fist in the gallery back then....
and am more than dead broke today....
but I UNDERSTAND and EMBRACE aspects of myself
that back then were mysterious and intangible to me.
I am more now
than I was then.
... And *he* ... can't have any.
this ... the barb dwyer today... is mine.