breaking old patterns.
This week has already been harder to deal with seeing RAH at work.
This is going to be harder than I thought. I keep thinking of calling him to talk and then I remember what happened for the holidays - the anger, the drama, and the misunderstandings and the not being together b/c of it all. So I know I am not ready to work on anything yet.
I also realized that I keep falling into the pattern of thinking it is all about him instead of staying focused on me and the stuff I need to do. boy this is sooooo much harder than I thought.
Today he surprised me and made something easier for me without my asking. I really did appreciate it. first communication in a month. oh I am pathetic.