Originally Posted by Sugah

I got all hung up on the wording of the 3rd step, specifically "God as we understood Him." I knew there was something bigger than me, some sort of organizing principle in the Universe, but I had no idea what It was -- and I thought I needed to know in order to take the 3rd step. But, I didn't. My concept of God has grown and evolved, and I still can't say I know Who or What God is, only that God Is. Good enough.

I also looked to others -- people with all sorts of individual conceptions of God, and I believed them when they told me that their Higher Power kept them sober, directed their lives. I drew hope from that, and honestly, that hope is what carried me through my 4th step, propped me up to take the 5th, brought me to the "entirely ready" part of the 6th step with eagerness and cultivated in me a sense of true humility in the 7th. I could keep going, but you get the idea.

That dread left me once I could breath, and I couldn't breath until I cleaned all the garbage out of my house. If you really don't want to take a drink, look around you and borrow some hope. I'm sure there are folks who have plenty to spare.

Peace & Love,
Sugah