Anyone else having a bad night?
I was doing ok today but as the night went on I just got overwhelmed with it all.
It is a combination of frustration, loneliness and boredom. I miss my husband - not the bad stuff just the idea of who I thought he was. I wonder about myself and how I did this to myself, my life is full but it is all the same stuff and I am tired of filling my time so I won't miss him or feel so bad. I am tired of the random and ugly memories that pop up as especially as I wonder if he misses me.
It isn't as though he is drinking anymore but just as others post - he hasn't changed much.
And I noticed that I have a serious case of not being able to trust anyone as well as feeling antisocial. Anyone else go througt that?