Ellima,
You absolutely belong here. And isn't it wonderful to belong!? We are all going through, or have been through precisely the same thing with our addicts that you are. Not only do you belong here, but everybody loves having you here. So stay, this is your place to be JUST YOU, get things off your chest and out in the open, and receive support and suggestions. Relax and enjoy the company, support and LOVE that we all have for each other here. Welcome home.