I dont know if I even belong here anymore
I do love coming here- it does help me. But Im not positive AH's drinking is my #1 problem with him anymore- well its up there of course, my issue is trust- I used to BLINDLY trust the man- until he pulled my world apart.
My trust is gone. I believe nothing he says. Even when he's sober. I don't know how to be me again. Even with out him,if I was with someone else- I would have no trust. i hate what this has turned me into. I feel like Ive loved a man for 8 years that I dont even know.