Hi Kickmeplz
Welcome to SR.
I never like to analyse anyone's relationship on the basis of a post.
I do think it's clear you have some issues, and you've identified some of them - fear of intimacy, trust issues etc...I think counselling might help you deal with them, but I'm just speaking generally from my own experience and issues: I have no experience with being ACOA.
We do have an ACOA forum too
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