(((Cmhcali))) - the choice is yours. Do you want to continue in a relationship with someone you can't trust? Someone you need to check their phone records (most likely because your gut told you something was amiss)?
He's going to do what he's going to do...the question is, what are you willing to tolerate? I don't mean to sound harsh, but when I began recovery of MY addiction, I had to leave XABF behind as he was still using. I didn't want to be with a man I couldn't trust, and I KNEW he was going to protect his addiction at all costs. It hurt, as I still loved him, but it was the best thing for both of us.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy