Laura, I gotta agree with Jules. If you are lying and hiding things from your husband, no matter how great of a guy he is, y'all do not have a great marriage. You need to get straight with yourself about the problem you've got with alcohol and then you've got to get straight with your husband. Believe me, I thought exactly like you do, and now I realize I completely forgot what a truly good marriage is during the years that I was drinking.
In addition, I have got an alcoholic family member who is still out there, and until about two weeks ago, I think everyone who knows us would have described me as
eternally tolerant, loving and wonderful
towards my family member, but guess what? The straw finally broke this camel's back over the holidays, and I'm DONE. No more enabling, no more codependency, no more nothin. Please don't push your husband to this point.
Get help friend. It ain't easy for any of us, but you gotta want it to get it done.
Good luck!
Jomey