Umbrella,
I want to welcome you here.
I TOTALLY understand you. My ABF is also an abuser of cocaine and alchohol.
So far he has never been physically abusive, but i don't wish to hang around long enough to find out.
He knows if he keeps abusing cocaine i am gone. I have set my boundary and i will damn well stick to it this time (yes i've been here before).
I understand the mood swings, and the manipulation and him blaming you. I have received all this too.
I am lucky enough not to live with my partner, so i can detatch to a certain level, yet you have to ask yourself if you can keep living with this.
If you wanna talk anytime let me know. In the meantime we are all here for you.
None of this is your fault. He chooses to use coke. He is spending serious money on this, and he knows drinking leads to cocaine. It's up to him to sort it out.
Also if he is not respecting himself, he won't be respecting you.
WELCOME!! ((HUGS))
~Limiya~