Originally Posted by
LadySlur 
I stuck around AA for 90 days, had a sponsor, worked the steps
[B]Maybe I just need to find the will[/B.
These two statements are incompatible.
If you had understood and experienced Step 1, you would understand that obviously you lack the will. That's what makes you an alcoholic.
I'm not trying to jump on semantics, Ladyslur. Your sponsor failed to carry the message of AA's simple program to you. You could not have taken Step 1 and still believe that finding the will is a solution. Lack of power is our dilemma.
Because I lack the power to quit, that's what makes me an alcoholic. At least according to Step 1.
If you really want to quit, find a sponsor who understands this.