Having a difficult evening
Detaching has been going well so far, but today I've been at my wits end and having a hard time detaching with love.
I feel like a single parent a lot of the time. I've been taking care of the 3 kids on my own all evening while he is in his room drinking and I find it so unfair. I ate dinner with the kids without him, cleaned up, and I put the kids to bed on my own, over an hour late. I asked him for help and he'd say "just a minute" and then completely forget.
Yeah, I'm pretty angry. The kids were lunatics this evening and I was the only one dealing with them.
I'm trying to accept that it's a disease, but what am I supposed to do when he's drinking, say to myself, oh, he's sick, poor guy. Yeah I do feel sorry for him and all of his anxieties and guilt, but on the other hand, where does that leave me?
Needed to vent :/