(((Elise)))
Only you will know what you can or cannot live with. You do sound as if you already know the answer to the question in your post though. Maybe you do need a break - some breathing space to think things through. I know that just a few days of no contact with STBXAH helped lift a lot of the confusion in my head. I could think more clearly without him there.
Drinking 6 "tall boys" is normal - for him. Can you accept that?