Should have known better
3 1/2 years ago, I found this place and it helped me finally realize that the best way to help my dad was to stop making everything ok for him. To stop fixing his problems and to stop making excuses for him.
For the first time ever, he went into rehab and was there for 6 months.
I came back almost a year ago to tell everyone how much this place helped, and how proud I was of my dad. He had been sober for 3 years and was doing so well. I thought he finally had beaten this.
Today I am back to say I was wrong. I am heartbroken to have found out he is drinking again. I had suspected it for awhile, the signs were there-particualrly his staying away. But today I found out for sure.
I realize that there is nothing I can do. But that doesn't stop the pain. Pain that he is destroying the life he worked so hard for the last 3 years. Pain because I realize he will never be the father I want, or need. Anger at myself, because I should have known better. I should have known.