Hi Hunny.
This is the absolute BEST place to get help and know you are not alone!
It's sad any of us have to be on here, but this is what we have been dealt. We all know the questions, the confusion, the guilt, the doubt, the worry, the pain, etc....and especially, "Why is this happening to me?".
I just kicked my 20 year old daughter out again for drug use two days before Christmas. Previous to that, I was married to her Dad and dealing with his alcohol abuse. (I am now divorced from him.) So, I guess I have spent about 20 years dealing with addictive behavior and I learned how to be a perfect "enabler."
Keep coming back here for great advice, knowledge, love, and compassion. We all hurt. This is our kindred spirit.
Hugs to you.
Musicta