Feeling violated - robbed of good feelings
I wish I could say something clever or witty. But I can only say I am sorry and I do know how you feel. I have all too often had the same thing happen. Even came close to it tonight!
If you are going to Al-Anon and have a sponsor...this would be a good reason to connect...if not, we are here to listen. Please consider getting some help...books, meetings etc this is awful hard to sort through on your own.
Now breathe, get the peace back, it is yours and belongs to you...feel it even if he tried to take it from you it is still yours...
Close your eyes now see it there. Wish I could help.