Thanks TC999. Your post wasn't harsh at all. I know you're really trying to help, and you obviously have. Thank you! I'm getting through another night. I made it through a whole week. I can't believe it. It's getting easier every day to spend longer chunks of time NOT thinking about him. I'll be glad when Christmas is over. That's a hard one for sure.
I'm just going to keep posting and keep reading and listening until I get through this. I know I couldn't do it without everyone here.