Redfish I discovered that in-order for me to stand any chance to 'win' I had to totally and utterly surrender and stop fighting.
When I was fighting against it I ultimately ended up drinking again as I just became too irritable, discontented and just wanted an instant release from these feelings, which I knew I could instantly get from taking a drink.
I realised from experience that ultimately I could never hope to win as it was my thinking/mind that was the problem so unless i could change that then inevitably I would drink again.
Just my experience.