I am going to talk to him tonight, I dont think I have ever been this scared in my life. Oh I didn't say that the subs or methadone would make it too easy I said that this is going to be hard and I want it to be hard, if w/d was easy I would just quit now and be done but the chances of me using again I know would be a whole lot bigger. I am hoping after going threw this that it will definatley be stuck in my memory as something I dont wanna do again!
I hope that myhusband will understand, I mean think about it I would be mad at me if I were him after all of the lies and everything. I really dont know how he will react, only 1 way to find out I guess.
I cut my doses almost in half, I am only doing 1 at a time instead of 2 and I am making myself wait (other than morning, thats gonna be my hardest) in between doses at least 2 hrs. So I am doing a little better in case anyone was wondering.