welcome, i am so sorry about your pain. there is alot of caring understanding people here. we do not judge only give our opinions & our stories. you did hit the nail on the head. you deserve so much better. there is nothing you can do to help your boyfriend. he has got to do it himself. do not feel bad. he has done this to himself. you were also right not to bail him out. meetings are wonderful. you have headed in the right direction by helping your self. keep coming back. prayers,