Thank you for posting, isurvived. One of the things I have tried to come to terms with early in this process (I have an addicted soon also) is that some day I may very likely have to disengage as you are now. I hope that day doesn't come, but no good can come from being dragged down with them. I love the saying, "Let go or be dragged." I know you are hurting, but he's in God's hands now and you have a life to live. I do hope you can find some peace and real happiness after all you have been through. (((((Hugs)))))