just one little other thing
the way *I* read your post,
I think there's some more work to be done
on your part
to more firmly focus your life on soemthing OTHER than this guy.
we love alcoholics,
we take care of them
and all that
but when all that jargon
is stripped away
what's left
is a life that's been hyperfocused on one person.
and now that person isn't there.
I innundated myself in recovery
when I first got sober.
I get a feeling that you need to absorb yourself
in something else
as well.
Make this foundation firm and solid
just like I had to in recovery.
SIgn up for a painting class
learn a foreign language
adopt a mile of highway
volunteer at a battered women's shelter
even take on a second job if necessary.
anything that will focus and hold your attention
someplace else.
you're unable to resist the temptation
to check on this guy
right now.
IMO.
we have to re-learn how to be in life
because we'd let them take up so much of our waking time
it's made a giant HOLE where this person
used to be.
it's just like a footprint
in the mud -
it DOES fill in and disappear
it's just slow about it.
ps-
facebook sucks.