BSO8, I feel exactly the way you do.
Alice, I neededto read that response too. Though it is practically impossible to me to believe that I meant anything to him on any level. I watched him go out of his way to prove himself to the one he really cared about. It seems I was just his comfort blanket while he worked on getting her back.
It's VERY hard to accept that I was anything to him.
But reading here still makes me realize his reality is not mine. And these are the truths I need to accept. Hard days sometimes.