(((Cessy))))
I see progress in your post. I know others who have progressed much further in their recovery might not see it but I see it. You are looking at him without the rose colored glasses and see that he is not who he was or who you would want him to be. Each time you have taken him back it was because you were seeing him not as he is but as he was. Our recovery is sometimes made with baby steps so small they seem invisible to the naked eye but I think every step towards recovery should be applauded.