I thank you all for those wonderful replies and hopefully someday soon,I will be able to say i am 30 days clean and so on.If any of you have read some of my previous threads than you will know that i deal with a lot of pain and thats how my addiction started,but i think that i can deal with the pain now without medication.The last time i was sober was 3 1/2 years ago which is a long time for being in a different state of mind. Will a sponsor want to help someone like me while i am still in active addiction but trying to quit? I really need to do this,not only for me but my wife and two boys. I would like to grow as a father and a family man and there is no room for these drugs in that scenerio.