Thanks Silkpin. Honestly, at this point, to me, I think the way he expresses his love for me is irrelevant. He buried us when he started drinking again. There's no reason for me to even think about the details of our relationship. There's no reason for me to consider a relationship with someone who doesn't have himself together 100% like you said. He's chosen to drink, so I'm choosing to move on. I can work out all my needs for affection with a guy who doesn't have trouble staying sober.
Thanks for helping me to work through my situation. I really appreciate it.
Movin' on....