Originally Posted by
wifeofadrinker 
I stay because I am not ready...*yet*
I stay because I realize I have a big problem with REALITY. I resist it with everything I have. I waste a lot of time wishing, wanting, being disappointed, being hopeful, etc. etc. on most everything in life rather than being with WHAT IS.
I really get this. The worst part about waiting and waiting for it to get better, is that I've never been a patient person, so when I'm disappointed after all the hoping, I get angry and I think the angry will turn to bitter if I don't leave him behind. I don't want to live a bitter life. I see happy couples now, shopping for Christmas things, and I already know what bitter feels like.